I'm feeling extraordinarily bitter today so I'm naturally going to rant here. Ranting, I've been doing that a lot lately. You know how you always think that you're going to have all this homework right when you get into high school? Well, that's untrue. I got less homework freshman year than in 8th grade, which is kinda sad now that I think about it, 'cause practically all of my classes were honors. Anyway, every year after that, I was told that the next year was going to be the most difficult one of high school. >.>; Funny how they just keep getting harder. Or maybe it's because I'm being more of a slacker. I really don't know. I think I have Senioritis already... wait, no. I've had that since I was a Freshman. Senior year hasn't been very fun, despite what others have told me. The only thing I've experienced is stress. Lots and lots of it, it seems. ._.

I knew AP chemistry was going to be difficult but not /this/ difficult. Come on now-- I stayed up till two in the morning studying for the chemistry test and I think I did horribly on it. -.-; There's something wrong with that. Seriously. No one seems to do as badly as I do in chem and I'm not entirely sure why. I scraped A's in both semesters last year during honors chemistry but this is a lot harder. The highest I've gotten on a quiz/test so far is an 80% which is horrible. <.<; I don't want a C in chemistry this year; it's gonna screw up my scholarship opportunities! I'm going to be ecstatic with a B, even though I wanted an A. ._. I feel like I'm failing all my classes, though the only one I'm really doing badly in is AP chemistry. (A B or a C, I've been to scared to calculate it.) >.> I have an A everywhere else, I've discovered just today. It doesn't make me feel any better, surprisingly enough but whatever.

Mom's convinced that I'm not careful enough and that's why I'm doing badly. Fine, so I'll admit that I'm /not/ careful on my tests and quizzes which really ticks me off, especially when I make stupid mistakes. >.< Like on our last-last math quiz, I could've gotten 100% though I got a D because I was being stupid. >.>; Granted, most of the honors students made the same mistakes, I felt horrible for it. Mom always lectures me when I do that... it's not that I don't agree with her but I feel bad enough already! Does she really need to bite my head off every single time I do something stupid? ...I guess so. <.< *chews tongue*

So another thing that ticked me off today! My orchestra teacher... sucks. I don't like insulting people and I'd never do it without reason but he /really/ sucks. 1) He's not even an orchestra teacher; he's a band teacher and even as a band teacher, he's not all that great. 2) He's got male PMS half the time. ...more than half the time, actually, more like /all/ the time. 3) He's got no manners whatsoever and is extraordinary intolerant of others. Let's call him Bob, since I seem to call everything Bob. Well, Bob has made two good friends cry in the past two weeks and I'm so sick of it. One of my friends is head drum major and for the most minute of reasons, he always puts her down and makes her feel that she's not doing her job, when he's just intolerant and lazy himself. The other friend was simply tuning her instrument and he kept on telling her that she really ought to know her instrument better and how we were in an "advanced" group and she shouldn't be playing like "crap." I was seriously offended by that. He can't even frigg'n /play/ a stringed instrument! How is he supposed to expect us to play well if he can't play any better? I wanted to just slap him in the face and tell him to f*ck off.

Few people I know actually like him-- most of those who do are jerks themselves. I know that my friends don't appreciate him and half the time, we're plotting against him once we graduate. Funnily enough, he's got this fear of girls and their "feminine issues" so I really want to dip a tampon in red food coloring and wave it in front of his face. ...of course, this would be after I get my report card and have been accepted to some college. >.>; Bob's just such a jerk and I want to claw his eyes out. -.- Just today I found out that the music in The Last Samurai (which the marching band is doing) is an entirely orchestral piece. Naturally, since he favors his precious bands so much more, he gives them a good /orchestral/ piece that he doesn't even bother presenting to my group! (Yes, I was hoping to play it.) What kind of a teacher does that?!? It's so messed up. >.<

What I really want right now is a B in Chemistry and a certain someone to go dig a ditch and lay in it. Although I'm kinda peeved right now, I'll admit that ranting makes me feel a lot better. I'll give you a cookie if you got all the way down here. You'll notice that I only add journals when I'm upset. It's just one of those things.